I apologize for the lack of updates. Things are just really not great for me right now. I have been working, even though I haven't been posting, and I want to share this chapter because I am really in love with the dynamic between Caius and Saga and this is a scene I am happy with, but might not actually use. It's an 18+ scene. Words:
Caius uses a couple of Latin words, it's part of his character and his relationship with Saga.
They're explained in a more organic way in the book but for context I've shared them here
Canicula - a small female dog. Used as an insult as in 'insignificant little dog/puppy' more than the way little bitch is usually used today. Caius uses it as an affectionate nickname for Saga.
Lupa - she-wolf. It was used to call a woman a slut/whore and the term she-wolf is used the same way by modern wolves in my lore. Talia calls Saga 'Lupa' to show Caius she regards Saga the same way she regarded his mistresses in the past (not a threat, and nothing more than an object). Used teasingly/affectionately by Caius because Saga didn't care when Talia accused her of letting Caius treat her like he used to treat prostitutes.
Scelesta - 'bad girl' or 'naughty little slut' etc.
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I noticed that Talia was trailing after Saga in the morning, and that she was not attempting to make it subtle.
I knew her well enough that her behaviour was easy to read; she was jealous of Saga, because she knew I had been sleeping with her and that my feelings for her were starting to become too serious to overlook.
She was jealous, and Saga knew that, too; she found it amusing, and I was relieved because that meant she was deliberately provoking Talia and not focusing her attention on me. I tried not to get involved, but Talia brushed up close behind me while I was making myself food in the kitchen, and she slid one of her hands down into my underwear to confirm what she already knew: I was nursing a highly inappropriate hard-on and trying to be subtle about it.
She pressed herself closer and grabbed my throat with her other hand.
“I know that your excitement around her is not something you can control, but you are not spending the next few days servicing your Lupa and overlooking the needs of your own mate. Do you understand?”
The way she was touching me was not making my drive any easier to control, and it was her that I wanted in the moment, despite my feelings for Saga.
“She can’t help being in Heat, Talia,” I brushed her hands away and turned to face her, so she was pressed against my chest with my erection against her stomach. “Calling her a slut isn’t fair.”
She dropped to her knees and looked up at me as she freed me from my clothing without saying a word.
I should have stopped her before she took me into her mouth, but I didn’t; I let her do it, and I enjoyed it just as much as I knew she intended me to.
I wound my fingers through her hair and exhaled as I let the sensations sweep me away; she teased me gently before she took me deeper, reminding me of a time when she was the only woman I wanted. She kept her eyes locked with mine and waited for a moment, until she was sure I was frustrated, before she carried on; it didn't matter how much time had passed - she knew what I liked, and she was an expert where satisfying me was concerned. I grasped her hair tighter and forced my cock deeper down her throat as I came: a moment of ecstasy, followed immediately by the shame of knowing I was trying to persuade Saga that I had genuine feelings for her.
She let me go after that, and I went up to my room to get away from everything, knowing that Saga was there before I even got there. I ran my hands through my hair and sighed before I opened the door, hoping that she wouldn’t realize what I had just done.
“It appears I was right, Canicula. You can have any man you want, but you only have eyes for me.”
I sounded like the man I had been before Talia tamed me - they were insincere words that this woman I was so obviously falling in love with did not deserve.
"I wish the feeling was mutual.” My heart sank, and I sat down on the edge of the bed. I reached out to touch her hand, but she pulled it away from me. "You were dead for two thousand years. I think whatever obligation you had to stay with Talia was fulfilled a long time ago."
"You're suggesting that you would want to take her place? I have nothing to offer a woman like you, remember. If you were born a couple of thousand years earlier, I might have been good enough, but now... you would be bored of life with me in no time."
She looked at me and folded her arms.
"Do you really think Robin will be taking over my pack when my parents stand down just because he has a dick? My parents value skill, not tradition, and I'm going to be the Alpha of the most powerful pack in the world soon. I don't need you to be the Emperor of anything. The fact you are an Alpha with no pack is a good thing - there would be no argument about me giving up my role to be with you."
"Is that so?" I laughed. "It doesn't sound like you need a mate, then. You will be far too busy when you're in charge of your own pack."
"I would rather be your mate than your whore."
She wanted me to engage with her, but I couldn't get into the reasons I was afraid to give Talia up, so I took advantage of her to change the topic.
"I don't think that's true… " I leaned across, grabbed the collar she had chosen to wear again, and pushed her down to lie on the bed. I kept hold of her and brushed my fingers down her body; her legs parted instinctively, because she wasn't in control of herself anymore, and I moved so I was kneeling between her thighs as she stared up at me. "...because you'll be my whore again soon enough if this is anything to go by."
"I don't appreciate you doing that."
"I apologize... I've never had a chance to frustrate someone like this."
"Aurelia was conceived before Talia was transformed?" Saga sat up, and I let the collar go. "That makes her half human..."
She wasn’t completely overwhelmed yet, then - she had read something into my words, and I assumed that she was concerned that my daughter might not be good enough for her brother.
"...no. I don’t think now is the time to explain this properly, but when I was as young as I look now, I decided I wanted to settle down. Having a casual relationship with a human was not frowned upon then, but when I chose Talia... I murdered her to have her transformed so my children would be full wolves. I was a selfish man, and I would rather not think about it now, but Aurelia has no human blood... "
"…then Talia has been in my situation, and you have enjoyed taking advantage of that. You had a lifetime to frustrate her."
It wasn’t her brother she cared about - she was asking because she didn’t believe I was telling the truth.
"Her body does not function the same way that yours does, Canicula. Whatever it is that stops her aging makes it harder for her to have children; it wouldn't be practical for her to go through this every year, let alone more frequently than that. I don't even know how often she comes into Heat, but it only happened once in the forty years I spent with her. We didn't even know it had happened until we realized she was pregnant - I may have been more interested in her than usual in retrospect, but it was nothing at all like this."
I thought that explanation would satisfy her, but she rolled over to face me and rested on her elbow.
"I've been told I'm harder to resist than others."
"I don't doubt that." I laughed.
"You resisted me yesterday, though…” she chewed her lip and looked down to see whether I was managing to resist her or if I was going to be easier to manipulate now. “Did Talia tell you that you can't touch me unless we use protection? Or are you the one who doesn't trust me?"
"It's not that I don't trust you - I don't trust myself. I want to be the one to satisfy these urges of yours, but I don't want to leave you collared with a responsibility that neither of us wants. Being cautious was my decision, and it was not an enjoyable one for me, either."
That wasn't entirely true. It was my decision, and it was the right one, but I had also been thinking about Talia and how she would feel if I settled down with another woman when I was only alive because of her.
I was already physically aching for Saga by the time she was on my bed, because my body was having strong reactions to being so close to a fertile young woman as powerful as her, and she was well aware of that when she started to remove her clothes.
I cast my own clothes aside and told myself it was to spare her dignity; the truth was, I didn't want her to see that I was desperate for her.
The pale pink leather collar was the last thing she removed, and she bound my wrists tightly with it before I had a chance to comment. I looked down at my hands, then back up at her. She climbed onto me with her knees on either side of my thighs, and pushed me down with my arms above me the way I had positioned her the last time she was in my bed. She shifted her hips so I was pressed against her pussy, and I was hard enough that I slipped inside her without intending to.
“Fuck…”I was barely inside her, but my pulse was racing, and I twisted my wrists in an attempt to free myself. The soft leather rubbed against my flesh so my wrists were stinging, but her scent was captivating enough that I didn't care. She smelled like amber, and bergamot, and a musky sweetness that reminded me of dark honey; there was something ancient and inherently powerful about it and it should have been intimidating, because there was none of the underlying fragility that other women had, but it was a potent aphrodisiac to me now. She lifted herself off me and I relaxed, but a moment later she moved back down so I was rubbing against her and my breath caught in my throat.
She moved her hand down to adjust me, so I was barely inside her again, and I groaned as I pushed my hips up, because she moved up too, and it did nothing to satiate me. When I closed my eyes and did everything I could not to beg her, she sank down agonisingly slowly, leaving me panting like a dog; she moved up, so I slipped out of her, then took me in again and settled back down. I moaned, and felt her tighten around me before she lifted herself off me again. She moved her hips so I rubbed against her clit, then decided she wasn't interested in that and pressed me to her entrance again. As she slid slowly down onto me, the sensation became overwhelming. "Fuck… I'm too close..." she swallowed nervously, unsure of what to do now she was so close to her goal, because I had not given her my consent to tie me down and milk me, and she knew it would be wrong to force me to take a risk I had been careful to avoid. I held my painfully hard erection in my still bound hand, so it was easier for her to resist carrying on. The way my pulse was surging made it feel like I was wrestling with my own cock in an attempt to keep it restrained, because all my body wanted was to let her finish what she had started and it was not complying with my perfectly reasonable decision to stay away from her cunt. "Scelesta, I am warning you - this is not a game you should be playing; I am not in control of myself anymore. I'm going to cum very quickly if you keep this up, and I will be very deep inside you when it happens."
Calling her a naughty girl was definitely not going to discourage her, and I hoped that she didn’t know the word.
She rested her hands on my chest and leaned down to kiss me.
"I need you to trust me," she whispered against my lips, and my breath caught in my throat.
She didn't believe that I was being honest when I said that it wasn't her that I didn't trust, but I whispered that I did trust her, and she turned herself around so she had her back to me before she began to move her hips so that her ass rubbed against me. I heard her gasp as I pressed myself against her, keeping myself firmly on the verge of penetrating her.
"This is what you want from me, Lupa?"
It definitely wasn't, and I would have been disappointed if that was what she was planning. She moaned, but moved herself so I was at no risk of taking her ass again, or mistaking what she wanted from me.
I breathed in sharply when she finally took me inside of her.
The fact that she had her back to me and that my hands were restrained made the act feel practical rather than emotional in any way, and I groaned in frustration when she ground herself down against me, because I couldn't grab her hips and pull her down further the way I was desperate to.
She did everything in her power to make me cum, because she was consumed by a yearning to be bred and getting me to finish inside her was all she cared about, but I had been able to regain control of myself, and I did everything I could to hold back. I twisted my wrists again; the leather had rubbed my skin raw, because I had been struggling harder than I realized to free myself when she first started to ride me. I focused on working my hands free of the binding until she leaned forward a little and rested her hands on my shins while she panted to catch her breath. It gave me the chance to slip completely free of the makeshift restraints, and I sat up behind her. My hands settled on her breasts and I brushed my thumbs over her nipples; she sat up, so her back was pressed to my chest, still drawing heavy breaths.
"You're in too much of a rush, Canicula," I massaged her breasts slowly, playing with her nipples and savoring how soft and warm her skin was. I kissed her neck, deciding to take advantage of her heightened senses, and ran one hand down her body gently until I reached her clit. It made her whimper on top of the panting, and I felt the muscles in my abdomen tighten immediately.
I moved my hands to her hips and guided her slowly as I whispered close to her.
"Take it easy," I kept her pressed down on me as my cock twitched again. "You're only just coming into Heat, you can control yourself better than this. I think it will do more to ease your discomfort if we take our time."
I could feel her trembling, and her hips began to move slowly as she seemed to respond to my words.
She began to move more freely as she grew familiar with the rhythm of it, and I felt her thighs shudder as an orgasm began to build. She twisted a little to look at me, and I took the opportunity to kiss her deeply and slowly, as the tension was finally released. When we parted, she took a few steadying breaths before she tried to move her hips again.
I held her in place with one of my hands pressed to her chest and the other firmly around her throat so she could appreciate how eager my body was without her needing to do anything.
"I have never wanted anybody quite like this, Lupa. I promise you: holding out just a little longer will be worth it..."
I guided her movements again as we started a slow, sensuous rhythm together, but she whimpered when I released my grip on her hips, and I knew I needed to let her take control of the pace. It was a relief that she immediately rode me hard, because I had been uncomfortably close to shooting my load in her since the moment she decided to play games with me, and I felt her desperation melt away when I finally filled her.
She cried out as if she had been the one to climax, and my cock pulsed again at the sound. My chest was still heaving, but I laughed and wrapped my arms around her as she collapsed back against me, completely exhausted. I nuzzled against her neck and moved my hands to grasp her waist, holding her firmly down on me, because it felt incredible, and I thought the physical connection and intimacy of the moment might keep her satisfied for longer.
"I care about you far more than I should, little she-wolf," I brushed her snowy white hair over her shoulder and kissed her neck. Her scent was divine now that it was mixed with my own, and she shuddered when I whispered to her. "I just couldn't leave you in that state."
She thanked me, as if it had been an inconvenience for me to fuck the most perfect woman I had ever laid eyes on while she was at the peak of her desire for a man like me to please. I intended to let her go, but as soon as she moved, I was consumed by a need for her again. I managed to move her to her hands and knees, and immediately buried myself in her again.
Apparently, her comment about being harder to resist than others had been an understatement, because there was no force in the world that would convince me to pull out of that woman now that I was inside her again.
"It seems I have another dose for you already, Lupa.” I worked myself a little deeper and rested my hands on her lower back. “Unless I have worn you out?"
"Another dose?" she laughed, and squirmed away, twisting around to lie on the bed, so I was left staring down at her perfect body. "It's semen, not medicine you're administering for me."
I groaned.
"You really didn't need to say it like that."
She laughed again, and reached up to take my cock in her hand.
She lay back against the pillows, playing with me casually as if it wasn't making me moan.
"I'm not surprised it's hard," she said, flippantly. "You've been as desperate to take advantage of this as I have. Your body is going to make sure you're ready whenever I ask for another dose, so I don't need to find someone else to help."
Wonderful...my little she-wolf was back to her usual infuriating self and treating my overenthusiastic hard-on like a separate entity with a mind of its own.
She wasn't exactly wrong about that.
"If you don't stop that I will find someone else to stick it in, and I don't think you will like that."
"You don't want anybody else - you only want me."
"Using my own words against me..." I had to stop mid sentence because she had decided to play games with me and she was looking up at me as she drew me into her mouth and sucked on me hard with a wicked look in her eyes. I sighed deeply as her tongue explored me. "Damn it, woman! You really are testing my patience."
I stared up at the ceiling and swore as I tangled my hands through her hair and pushed my hips so I was as far in her mouth as I thought she could take.
She flattened her tongue against the underside of my cock and held me firmly, before easing back off of me slowly. Her eyes never left mine while she licked at the head of my cock, and I groaned as she released me.
"Do you think I'm as good as her?"
I was doing my best not to thrust back into her mouth, because she was making it difficult to be patient, but the question was so innocent that I pushed her away and kept my hands on her shoulders.
"It's not even close. She doesn't compare to you."
She smiled sadly and looked down at me again. She knew what I had done before I came back to my room, and my words were hollow to her now.
"I don't need you, you know," she lay back down, but her legs parted for me and I knelt between her thighs with my hands on her knees. "I just prefer to keep my head clear this way. It's more effective than other things. Anyway…I don't want you wasting yourself on her again while I'm in Heat; I feel it more intensely than others seem to, and it takes a lot to keep me satisfied. I will be the one to suffer if you give yourself to her and find yourself unable to perform for me. I need you to know - I've never let an Alpha help me with this before. It seems that we are drawn to each other, and I expect I'll be in need of you again sooner than usual- I'm supposed to be with someone like you, and you... "
I rested one of my hands on her stomach to remind her exactly what we were risking when we gave in to each other; she stared up at me with a deceptively innocent expression.
"... I'm supposed to make sure you have my baby in here by the end of this." She blushed immediately, so I slid my hand down between her thighs and wiped the warm, white fluid that was trickling down her onto two of my fingers. I pressed one of them into her gently so she held her breath in anticipation; she closed her eyes and grabbed the bedsheets when I slipped the other into her and slid them both deeper. I started to play with myself subconsciously as I touched her, because feeling how much of my cum she was holding already was exciting me again. I moved my fingers slowly, at a steady pace; I felt her clench around them when she hit an unexpected peak, then watched as the load that had been so satisfying for both of us dripped from her pussy and pooled on the bed between her legs when her muscles had relaxed. I withdrew my fingers to show her, and her eyes widened at the sight of my cum completely coating both fingers. I leaned over her and braced myself with my free hand beside her shoulder as I brought them to her lips; she sucked at them hungrily and looked into my eyes.
She had been perfectly lucid before I touched her, but now...
“You're already overflowing, Canicula. You can barely contain what I've given you," I whispered as she continued to suck my fingers. I wasn't really saying it to her - I just couldn't quite believe how intense her need was. "I suppose you did warn me that it takes a lot to satisfy you."
That had been an understatement. I had only screwed her once, but she was so loaded with my cum when I dipped my fingers into her that it had spilled-over rather spectacularly onto the bedsheets, and yet she was still pulling insistently at my hips to get me inside her again.
I smiled at the little frustrated noise she made when I didn't do what she wanted, but I wasn't in the mood to tease her, and she wasn't in the mood for it to take longer than a couple of minutes this time.
I sat up between her knees and looked down as she caught her breath when I was done with her.
"This is normal for you?"
She blushed, but she didn't answer, so I nudged her thighs further apart, brushed my fingers over her so that she cried out again, and repeated the question as I lifted them and showed her that they were dripping.
"I did tell you I'm hard to resist," she tried to sound dismissive.
"You're avoiding the question - is that because you're embarrassed that you're a painfully insatiable little slut when you're in Heat? Or are you ashamed to admit it is hitting you a little differently this time, because you have never been with someone like me before? You told me you are drawn to me…"
"...I told you that we are drawn to each other," she corrected me.
"If you need me to keep you this full every time you are in Heat, I can do it - but if this isn't your usual experience, you need to tell me. I trust that you intend to be careful, but I think you may be starting to come into season a little more frequently, and finding it harder to stay satisfied - it is going to be difficult not to breed you if I am right about that. I can't tell your body that now is not the right time, or that I am not the right person - unless this is normal for you, that decision has been made for us, and we might not get to decide whether it is appropriate for you to whelp. You may be able to get your own way most of the time, but your body will betray you to get what it is craving."
She swallowed nervously and avoided looking at me.
"You are panicking for no reason. Even if it is a little different, I have always been this insatiable, Caius."
"I am not panicking," I sighed and looked at her, trying to determine how seriously she was taking me. "You're exhausted, Canicula," I stroked her cheek softly, hoping she would understand what I was trying to imply. "We need to make sure you have the energy you need to transform, or you will have to go back to your pack with your tail between your legs and their future Alpha in your belly."
"I'm only exhausted because you wanted to draw it out. There was no need to take so long. I felt how close you were the entire time."
I stood up and began to get dressed as Saga remained firmly on my bed with her legs parted. I tried not to look, but she spread them wider when she noticed that.
"You're in denial; I may have to leave for a few days so we don't find out how determined your body is to bring another stubborn little wolf into the world. It may be difficult, but I need you to try to transform... " She shifted into her wolf form with ease to prove that I had underestimated her, and to stop me from berating her. "Wait..." I called after her when she jumped down from the bed, and she shifted back from her wolf form to stand in front of me.
"Bitches are inclined to stray when they are in Heat..." she sounded emotionless, but her words were a threat.
"Canicula, please don't."
"Why not? Why shouldn't I find someone else to keep me satisfied if you are so convinced my body is crying out for you, and you alone, to breed it? There will be no risk of that with other men.”
I wanted to tell her that the idea of her sleeping with other men when she wasn't in Heat was already maddening enough, and that my feelings for her were not easy to comprehend.
I had been madly in love with Talia until my dying breath, and now that I was alive again in a world I would never understand, I felt as if Talia pitied me. She saw the fact I was alive as an inconvenience a lot of the time, but Saga... she understood me.
She teased me and drove me insane with her stubbornness, but her motives were strangely pure. She only ever teased me in the name of showing me that she was worth my time.
And she was the only woman who had ever been interested in me with no ulterior motive…the only one who had more to offer in every way than I had.
She was powerful, and talented, and beautiful, and she was willing to waste her time on me when I should have been nothing more than a novelty to her.
"I care about you far more than I should, little she-wolf." For a moment, her eyes flashed with anger, until she remembered me saying that to her as she was in my arms. “ I don’t want you to stray - not while you're in this state. For the next few days, I want you to come to me, and only me."
"Are you asking me, or telling me?" she laughed, but something in her eyes told me it was a question she needed to hear my answer to.
I was terrified that I would say the wrong thing and lose her forever, but I reached impulsively for the pink leather collar on the bed and slipped it around her neck gently. She was shaking as I did up the silver buckle, and I cupped her jaw in my hands and looked at her silently for a moment before I spoke.
"Consider yourself claimed; you are no longer my Lupa, even in jest. You don't have to stay here with me, but I will be ready and waiting when you do need me again, and you are not going to let another man touch you in the meantime, because you belong to me…we belong to each other; that is what makes this different.”
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